Why Do I Want to Change?
There are a lot of people out there these days that are all about big is beautiful and calling out body shaming and every size is sexy and beautiful. I’m not here to rain on anyone’s parade, but some days I feel like it’s damned if I do change, damned if I don’t change.
There are some out there who would call me a disgusting pig because of my weight. Then there are those that insist that if you try to lose weight, you’ve obviously been brainwashed by the patriarchy.
“How can you live like that? How can you eat that? Don’t you care about your body at all?”
“Why would you want to lose weight? Can’t you just love yourself the way you are? Embrace your curves!”
Well, I’ve got two middle fingers, and I think both of these camps deserve them.
Let’s Talk about Shamers
No one wants to be fat. Let’s just put that out there right now. Here’s a page of 38 Diets from 2016 that only scratch the surface. We wouldn’t have so damn many if people actually liked being fat. I’ve never met anyone who enjoyed not being able to find their size in a store or getting winded walking up the stairs to the bathroom. Do you really think that when you tell someone they are fat that you are telling them something they don’t already know?
Thanks, Captain Obvious! I never knew! I’ll get right on that.
The worst ones are the ones that make fun of people who are working out at a gym, walking or jogging down a street, or taking a yoga class. Screw you, asshole!
Okay, now that we’ve talked about those jerks, let’s talk about the other group.
Let’s Talk about Embracers
I’m all for showing more body types in advertisements, showcasing some plus size models, and not making fun of people for their weight. But these people who are trying to make it sound like its normal. This is NOT the normal state of a healthy human body. Keyword: Healthy.
Being overweight, being obese, is NOT Healthy. I don’t care if you work out every single day and you eat cleaner than Gweneth Paltrow, if you are overweight, you are not healthy. Period. If you have an excess of body fat, then your body is working too hard. And if you are pushing the narrative that it is perfectly acceptable to be overweight, you are a part of the problem. Do I think that I’m ugly because I’m overweight? No, I don’t. I know that there are people who think I am. But their opinion doesn’t matter to me, because the people who love think I’m beautiful, including me. But that doesn’t mean I think society at large should have to change what is considered beauty. Being healthy is even more beautiful!
But I’m healthy, right?
I am severely overweight. Fitting into the morbidly obese category, I’m also pretty sure I’d be a candidate for weight loss surgery if I really wanted to give it a shot (which I don’t). I also do 21,000 steps and strength training every day, with a good 30 minutes of cardio dancing 2-3 times a week. Six out of seven days I eat healthily.
I am not healthy. I’m not even CLOSE. But I’m getting there. Every day I get a little closer to the goal of being healthy. There is a difference between being fit, and being healthy. There are some people who are overweight, but they are extremely fit. And that fitness offsets some of the problems that come with being overweight. I’m beginning to get to that point. I can go 10 miles a day on my elliptical and I’m almost ready to increase the weight I’ve been working with. But I still have a long way to go.
Now, I’m not saying that if you are overweight you are any less of a person. Absolutely not. There is nothing wrong with YOU as a person if you are not healthy, but we need to stop pretending that its okay to not even try.
I love my body and my life. I want to have it for a long time to come. In order to be here for another 40 or 50 years, I have to change. Change is hard, but it is oh so worth it.