Progress Report

It has been a while since I’ve done a progress post. That’s mostly due to the fact that I haven’t made much progress. Well, so I thought. January was a bit rough on the diet and exercise front, with the mister and I fluctuating up and down quite a bit. But we broke out the tape measure this past weekend. Lo and behold, we were making progress without realizing we were.

Measurements trump the scale

I see it a lot, that the scale is not always the best indicator of where you are. But we never really believe that, do we?

Progress

We want to believe that that horrible, mocking number on the device of doom somehow is our end all and be all. Which is why we put so much stock in it. A good number can make you feel on top of the world, while a bad number can send you spiraling into depression.

The Clothes Test

After several weeks of the mister not going down at all, and my own numbers barely budging (or worse, creeping upward), I knew we had to get the measuring tape out. Neither of us were dealing with clothes that were too tight. In fact, hubby just bought a shirt in a size large! And the size 24’s that I bought just a little too tight to be comfortable are now fitting as nicely as my now loose 26’s did. So what gives?!

Had Anything Changed?

We weren’t eating any differently. If anything, we’ve been more diligent on the low-carb front since the discovery of Fathead dough. But we have increased the weights we use for our daily workouts. I went from 1lb dumbells to 5lb. The mister went from 2lb to 8lb dumbells. That’s a big change. I knew we had to be dealing with some muscle increase, but there might have been more going on.

So I did Some Research…

Turns out, part of the issue could have been the muscle gain, sure. But more likely, what we’ve been dealing with is muscle inflammation. It seems that we’ve been seeing the scale go up the more we work out with the heavier weights. Of course, that doesn’t mean we’re going to stop working out. It just means we need a few more weeks for our bodies to adjust.

Still, I’m pretty certain that most of the issue was actual muscle gain, due to the measurements we took after our last disappointing step on the scale.

Oh wow.

The last time we did measurements was in November. At that point, the mister was at his lowest weight of 229.1 with a body fat percentage of 19.5. This week, his weight was at 237.3 with a body fat percentage of 19.4. Yeah, you can see where this is going right? Higher weight, lower body fat? He lost a total of 4.25″ off his body measurements that we track. A full inch of that was off his belly! He now has a healthy waist measurement!

But what about my progress?

Well, despite having stalled out around 275 (274.7 to be exact) my measurements dropped dramatically. I went from 279.2 with 55.5% body fat in November to 274.7 with 53.5% body fat. So I lost 4.5 lbs, and lost 2% of my body fat. Oh…and 15.5″ off my measurements.

Progress

Of course, there is a downside to that. 3″ of that loss came off my boobs. At least I have plenty to spare in that department! But that was also 2″ from around my ribs, and 1.5″ off my waist and hips. And by the way, squats kick ass. I lost an inch and a half off each of my thighs. EACH.

Not a Bad Start

The year is still just beginning and I have a long row to hoe to hit my goals, but I’m going to get there. If I don’t hit my goal of 250 by our anniversary, I’m hoping to at least get into a size 22. That would be a size smaller than I was on our honeymoon.


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Weekend Weigh-In

Welcome to the weekend weigh-in! This week seriously just flew right by, and I’m not sure where it all went. I suppose as we get closer to Christmas, life just gets that way.

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Still, there were some definite ups and downs throughout the week. So let’s just jump into what went down this week.

The Good

Well, I went to the doctor this past Monday. That sounds like it could be bad, and the reason for going isn’t great, but the outcome was pretty great. I haven’t been on the scale at the doctor’s office since back in May. Had they not asked me to, I would have asked to get on it so they could record the change. It was a great feeling to step on there and see the nurse’s face when she looked at my last number.

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Even better when she calculated it and said I’d lost 10% of my body weight! Of course, I was there to talk about my blood pressure, which was going down slowly, but still elevated for me. We decided on the course of a low dose of blood pressure medication sans diuretic. I go back after the holiday to have my blood pressure checked in the office again, but so far, I’m seeing good results with my home meter.

The PA I saw said that she is confident that if we continue what we’re doing, then I should be off the medication in a few months, tops. That’s the goal.

The Bad

I’m still dealing a bit with the injury from the fall I took the week before last. Recovering from this hasn’t been pleasant, and definitely caused a set back for me in my exercise. I’m still experiencing an occasional bit of pain in my knee when I put pressure on it, but at this point, it is getting much better.

I kept my step count lower than usual but raised it back to 15k. I still wasn’t able to do a full workout, but we continued with the 5-minute beginner cardio from HasFit.com. I’m looking forward to getting started on the whole Beginner Workout program this coming week. I can’t wait to see what kind of results we might get from it.

Looking Ahead

This coming week is going to be a bit hectic. We’re in the final stretch before Christmas, so I’m pushing to finish the one gift that I’m making and to get a few others mailed out. As I mentioned above, we are planning on restarting our workout program this week, and I’ll be bumping my steps back up to 20k a day. Given my results this week, I’m hoping to be under 275 when we weight next Saturday. That will be a happy birthday present for myself.

Yes, that’s right, my birthday is coming up next Sunday. I’m going to be 39. How the hell did that happen? Ugggghhhhh. I do not feel 39. Can I just roll the clock back about 10 years? That would feel more appropriate. Oh well, time marches on. At least it is not advancing across my face yet!

Weigh-In

I’m down.

My biggest goal for year 39? Get down to 200lbs. That means 1 ½ lbs a week for a year. Doable? Maybe. But that’s the goal, and I’m going to do my best to hit it. My ultimate goal is 140, and I’m hoping to be there by birthday number 41. But that’s way down the line. For now, I’m going to concentrate on making 39….Amazing.

Weigh-In Results:

Date: 12/09/17

Weight: 276.0 | -1.6

Body Fat %: 55.0 | +0.1

BMI: 47.4 | -0.3


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Weekend Weigh-In

Welcome back to the weekend weigh-in! I hope you all had a wonderful holiday and took the time to enjoy some good food and good family fun. As I mentioned in my Holiday Survival Guide, the mister and I do not weigh on holiday weekends. Why torture ourselves like that?  Of course, that doesn’t mean we just throw the scale out the window.

The Good

We had a wonderful holiday. We celebrated with just ourselves and my mom, and it was lovely. The food was delicious, and we ate way too much of it. I also ate far too many Hershey’s kisses over the course of two weeks. But considering that we ate so much, and the fact that I was unable to exercise for the better part of this week, I was very much okay with a tiny gain when I stepped on the scale yesterday morning.

It probably also helped that I peeked at the number on Monday morning. I was curious! I used the scale that doesn’t automatically send my stats to my phone so I knew it wouldn’t be recorded. Just wanted to get an idea of how hard my battle was going to be. I expected a larger gain, and I also didn’t expect that I would lose all of it in a single week, even if we were starting a new exercise program. If I had been able to keep at it, I think I might have lost all of it, and maybe even more.

The Bad

The week started out just peachy keen. We both liked the new exercises, we had some great recipes on our menu for the week, work was low-key, I even got all of our Christmas presents wrapped! And then Wednesday came. It all went downhill so fast. How fast? As fast as it took me to trip and fall over the canopy from our Starlighting trip.

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It was my own fault, of course. I wasn’t paying attention to what I was doing, talking to my mom, and turned around to go get my coffee, and my foot snagged it just right. While I’m sitting on the floor alternating between saying “ow,” laughing, and reassuring my mom that I’m okay, my uncle walks into the shop and, looking quite confused, asks if we’re doing some new exercises. My mom and I both lost it. It took me another minute or two after we stopped laughing and I stopped waving my arms like I was doing jumping jacks on the concrete floor, I finally made it back to my feet and went to retrieve my coffee. At that point, I could feel that something was not quite right with my hip. Shake it off. Shake it off.

I Couldn’t Shake it Off

Around 10 I was starting to get pretty sore, so I called my aunt to make an appointment to see her for a QE session (Quantum Energetics) for the next day, and continued on about my morning.

By 11am, when I got up to use the restroom, I could tell that this was not going to be good, and on my way back to my desk, I had to catch myself on said desk, when my whole leg went weak after pain shot through my hip.

While I’m saying, “Okay, I’m going up to urgent care,” my mom is telling me to go get looked at. So I grabbed my keys, picked up the mister, and headed up to the Kaiser medical center.

It Gets Worse

Thankfully, my x-rays came back with no broken bones, despite the amount of pain I was in. But they found another problem. They took my blood pressure around 6 times between my arrival and my leaving. Now, my bp usually hovers around 130/80ish. It was absurdly high for me. It never dipped below the 140’s over 110’s. And it got as high as 155/115. They even ordered an EKG. Luckily, that came back normal as well.

So along with the Tylenol and tramadol they sent me home with, I also had a recommendation to pick up a blood pressure cuff (which I did) and to make an appointment to see my PCP (which I also did).

There was to be no strenuous exercise for the rest of the week, but I was at least able to return to work. Unfortunately, despite my pain being greatly alleviated after my visit with my aunt (who is amazing), my blood pressure still has not dropped down into my normal range. So I have an appointment with my doctor tomorrow morning, and another appointment with my aunt on Tuesday.

Weekend Weigh-In

 

So, Now What?

I am so thankful to have the opportunity to see a QE practitioner, as I truly believe I would not be near as recovered as I am at this time, had I not been to see her. While my range of motion is still a bit limited I have been able to mostly return to normal functionality, and I haven’t needed the tramadol or the Tylenol in two days. Today, I was even able to get back to my exercises, though I took it slow and easy.

I was disappointed that I didn’t get to make the cheeseburger cauliflower casserole last week. Have no fear, I will be getting to it this week, along with another recipe that I hope to review. Stay tuned for the menu tomorrow!

And just as a PSA, always watch where you’re going!

Measurements

Date: 12/02/17

Weight: 277.6 | +0.6

Body Fat %: 54.9 | -0.0

BMI: 47.7 | -0.2

 


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Weekend Weigh-In

This week was a bit of a rollercoaster for me! We had a major event coming up at work that I was preparing for, and we were derailed from our plan to exercise with Daily Burn. But for the most part, I only have good things to report. Especially when it comes to my weigh-in.

The Good

Some weeks I am at a loss for where to begin with the good in my week, but I have no such trouble today! I had a major non-scale victory this week in the form of a ring I thought I had lost. Now, I wasn’t too terribly upset about its loss. It’s just a pretty little thing that I got from FragrantJewels.com. But I really liked this ring, because it had a pink center stone and was set in silver. Very me.

It reappeared this week while we were at GameStop this week. The mister threw on one of the hoodies we keep in the car because he left his jacket at home. It hadn’t been worn since last winter. While we were waiting in line, he was rummaging through the pockets and found….tada, my ring. And a pair of Dobby earrings. See my Harry Potter obsession here. No money, unfortunately, but I was so stoked that he’d found my ring and earrings!

It Gets Better!

The last time I wore this ring, I could have squeezed it onto a ring finger, but I probably would have ended up having to have it cut off. So I settled for it fitting a tiny bit loose on a pinkie.

Weigh-in

That’s right, that’s my pretty pink ring, sitting on my right ring finger. Despite my sausage fingers making it look like it is a bit snug, I assure you, it’s as loose as it can get without falling off when I let me hand hang down.

While this may seem like it was enough to totally make my week, there is even better news to be had.

On Tuesday, the mister went in to get his A1C tested along with a protein test. Everything came back….NORMAL. That’s right. In May, his A1C was in the 10s, and now he is in the normal range. We are both out of the prediabetic range!

Revelations

There really is nothing bad to report this week, though the mister might beg to differ. He did gain a little this week, but I’m pretty sure we’ve pinpointed why.  However, he also had a non-scale victory that he’s only going to find out about if he reads my blog (which I know he does).

When we have a drive-thru night, I come pick him up at home after I get off work and we head out to eat. Tuesday evening, I come around the corner and I’m pulling up to the bank of mailboxes and there’s this guy standing there getting his mail with his back to me. He’s wearing a snug-fitting t-shirt and a cap. I’m thinking, “Oh my, did someone new move into the complex?”

Weigh-in

Then he turned around and IT WAS MY HUSBAND. I was ogling my man! It was one of those holy-shit look at how hot my man is moments. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve always thought my husband is sexy. I’ve always thought he was handsome. But I didn’t realize how much weight he had lost until I couldn’t recognize him from behind. So..you go, mister, you amazing sexy beast.

Measurements

Date: 11/18/17

Weight: 277.0 | -2.2

Body Fat %: 54.9 | -0.3

BMI: 47.5 | -0.4

 


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Weekend Weigh-In

This is the first weekend in a while that I haven’t ended up with a sugar hangover, and I think I’ve pinpointed the problem! As I said in my Friday Favorites from this week, the mister and I love to go to the movies. But that means snacks and treats. That’s not bad in itself, but when you pair a little candy and popcorn with 32 oz of sugar-filled Coke Icee, then you might have a problem brewing. When we went to a movie this Saturday, I skipped the Icee in favor of a Coke Zero and had no sugar hangover this morning.

The Good

This week was the last of our 4-Week Challenge workouts. Every single one was a killer. But that meant results. And we certainly got results! I wasn’t the only one to gain a little back last week. Yesterday morning showed a loss of everything we had gained plus a bit more. Progress!

I also had a small non-scale victory this week when one of our suppliers brought in mini-bundt cakes for my mom and me at the office. Normally, I would have been all over those babies, especially since one was a pumpkin spice cake (the other was red velvet). But, aside from them smelling lovely, I wasn’t actually tempted to eat one. I had no regrets when my mom suggested that we give them to the office next door to ours. Luckily, she is also following a similar plan to ours, so I didn’t have to watch her eat one. That might have been too much.

 

Weekend Weigh-In

 

Revelations

I don’t have anything bad to report this week, but I did have a few revelations! I realized that since we have given up a good amount of sugar in our diet, I don’t crave it nearly as much as I used to. For a while there, I had a hard time walking past doughnuts at the grocery store. Or the candy aisle. Or the cookie aisle. At this point, I don’t even look at them anymore.

We do all of our weekend grocery shopping on Sunday morning after putting together our weekly menu. This morning, I realized that our shopping trips have become very streamlined. There is a huge section of the store that we just completely bypass at this point. Cookies, crackers, snacks, chips, cereals, bread, bakery…we just breeze on past. The only reason we go down the soda aisles anymore is to get diet lemonade and to hit the gift card stand (we get double gas points on gift cards, so we buy them for the days we eat out).

It was interesting to realize that our shopping habits have changed so drastically. We used to do most of our shopping in the middle of the store, now most of our shopping is limited to the perimeter: produce, meat, dairy, frozen. It’s an interesting shift!

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So what were my results this weekend? Promising!

Measurements

Date: 11/11/17

Weight: 279.5 | -1.2 | Total since 10/1/17: -3.9

Body Fat %: 55.2 | -0.1 | Total since 10/1/17: +/- 0

BMI: 47.9 | -0.2 | Total since 10/1/17: -0.7

Bust: 55.5″ | -0.5″

Waist: 51″ | -1.25″

Hips: 57.75″ | -0.75″

R. Thigh: 27″ | +/- 0″

R. Calf: 17″ | +/- 0″

R. Bicep: 14.5″  | +/- 0″

I had a total, overall inch loss of 4.25″, quite worth the work I’ve put in over the past month. Here’s hoping next month’s measurements are even better!


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The Art of Failure

Whether it’s at losing weight, playing a game, getting a promotion or finding love, there is one thing that we all fear: Failure. That’s the eight letter word that brings the best to their knees. But here’s the thing…it happens to all of us!

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I’m a failure

That’s right, I’m a failure. We all are. Not all the time, of course! But we all fail at things. As I mentioned yesterday on Mimi’s Monday Menu, this past weekend I didn’t make a progress post. I didn’t feel like I’d made any progress. In fact, I’d taken a step back by gaining weight! I had failed at losing weight last week.

Now, there is something important you have to keep in mind when you fail at something. Just because you fail doesn’t mean that’s the end. If I stopped trying every time I gained a pound back, I’d have quit trying to exercise and eat better 70lbs ago.

Little change, big difference

A lot of times, the reason we fail at something is something small. Maybe last week’s mistake was a pop into Starbucks when I stopped by the grocery store. Let’s not talk about the fact that I was there to pick up creamer for the office. For my coffee…

Or it could have been the fact that we added more reps to our exercises and I was gaining muscle. Don’t judge my delusions. There was clearly something that made me gain back that pound. My trick is to watch myself more carefully and work on finding the catalyst.

It’s not just about fitness

This applies to any area where you feel like you are failing, not just fitness. In the beginning (and even now sometimes) I feel like a failure as an artist. So I practice more and work harder to get better. The important thing is to not give up because of a setback.

Failure

When you start out in any career, there are going to be failures and successes. You’ll get jobs, and you’ll lose them. Maybe you’ll interview and someone will be more qualified or more poised. Or you’ll get jobs that don’t suit you and you’ll eventually quit. It happens! Even Monster.com acknowledges that failing can be good for you.

Make Failure a Success

Use mistakes as a jumping off point! Most of the time, the second attempt at something is faster, easier and turns out better. That’s because you already know what works and what doesn’t. Remember that unless you’re skydiving, failing isn’t likely to kill you.

A little story for you: I didn’t get my driver’s license until I was thirty. Now, I’m not going to go into the why’s behind that. That’s a story for a different day. But I remember how nervous I was about taking that driving test. I’d aced the exam, and I’d been practising for weeks. I could even passably parallel park!

When we got to the DMV, I nervously got behind the wheel with my evaluator. We had to go through all the controls of the car. But no one had ever shown me how to turn on the brights or the hazards! I fumbled around for what felt like forever before I admitted that I honestly didn’t know. Now, he didn’t fail me for that, but it certainly didn’t get us off on the right foot, and I did get points taken off. So, we pull out of the parking lot, and things are going pretty well until we get to the second stoplight where I have to make a right-hand turn.

I signalled and rolled up to the now red stoplight. There was no one coming, and so after a brief pause, I turned. And just like that, I failed my driving test. I “ran a red light” according to the evaluator because I did not come to a full three second stop. Auto-fail.

Never Give Up!

Now, I could have given up. I was SO disappointed. But instead of crying and giving up, I cried and then rescheduled my test.

Go try again

When I came back to take the test a second time, a state trooper got in the car with me. He was incredibly nice, and as soon as he asked me to do a rundown of the lights and functions, I knew exactly where everything was and how it worked. We took off down the road and I aced my driving test. I did even better than I expected on the parallel parking, and I’m pretty sure it was because I spent almost every night up at the DMV practising with their cones.

Never Stop (except at red lights)

Instead of letting that failure consume me, I used it as a place to say “Okay, I did this right, I did this wrong. I can improve.” I did even better at what I was already good at. I learned things that I needed to know in order to succeed when I tried again. And I’ll tell you something: I have never failed to come to a full three-second stop when turning right at a stoplight ever since.


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Weekend Weigh-In

Oh, Sunday, why do you have to show up every week to remind me that tomorrow I have to go back to work? Can’t I just stay home tomorrow and play the new Assassin’s Creed while pedaling my elliptical? I suppose not.

Oh well, it was a fairly good week, and a rather interesting weekend as far as progress. So, let’s just jump into the update!

The Good

Monday’s trip to the dentist ended up going very well. The rest of my mouth was planed and now it’s a matter of upkeep and one filling that will be done in two weeks. But given how sore my mouth was after the numbness finally wore off (almost 6 hours until it was completely gone!) I had a soft dinner, which meant I wasn’t counting carbs or calories. I just wanted to eat anything.

Anything turned out to be one snack pack of sugar-free jello and an entire container of Greek Gods Strawberry and Honey Yogurt. Holy cow that stuff is so good. Due to not being able to feel my mouth and not wanting to risk ending up wearing my lunch, I didn’t eat any, so by dinner, I had no self-control.

Still, I hit a new milestone this week by dropping down into the 270’s which means that I have hit more than 70lbs lost!

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The Bad

Oh god did we overdo it yesterday. And you know, we didn’t really eat a whole lot more than we normally do on cheat day. I just think that we’re about to hit another of those “It’s so good, but I just can’t have it anymore” moments.

I think the biggest mistake was eating dinner and dessert way too close to bedtime. We both ended up with horrible indigestion all night. I always take a Zantac before bed. Last night I took a second one at about 3 am, and I still had issues!

We both woke up this morning with sugar hangovers. It’s a real thing! I suppose that it’s actually a good thing. We’ve been cutting sugar out so much that when we do eat it, we have a bad reaction to it. Given that I used to eat an entire bag of gummy Lifesavers without issue, and yesterday I couldn’t eat more than 10, I’ll take the trade-off.

Measurements

Date: 10-28-17

Weight: 279.5 | -0.9 | Total: -70.5

Body Fat %: 55.6 | +0.1 | Total: -3.4%

BMI: 48.0 | -0.1 | Total: -12.1

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Here’s to another great week and another loss! Bring on Monday. I’ve got this.


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Corset Curves

Curves for Days

Today was one of those days where I woke up and decided to do something I’d been putting off for a long time. I’m a procrastinator of the worst sort at the best of times, but when there is something that I’m unsure about or dreading, I have a difficult time forcing myself to do what needs to be done. So, while I was grabbing my clothes out of the closet this morning, I decided to grab my beautiful long-line 426 corset from Orchard Corset.

Orchard Corset 426 Longline Cotton

https://www.orchardcorset.com/products/waist-training-corsets-plus-size-steel-boned-longline-underbust-cotton-corset-cs-426

Wait, what?

That’s right, I have a corset. Back before summer set in, I was well on my way to seasoning this beauty. But, as often happens when you wear the largest possible size a company offers, and it doesn’t fit quite right, I eventually stopped wearing it. It didn’t really help that the hot and sticky weather of summer showed up.

And so my lovely longline and my sexy short 426 with hip-ties (that I have yet to season) went into hibernation, draped carefully over hangers in my closet.

But isn’t wearing a corset bad for you?

I know, I know, there is some controversy surrounding whether or not corsets are healthy for you. The myths about regularly wearing corsets causing organ squishing and damage to bones are exactly that…myths.

Lucy from Lucy’s Corsetry does an excellent job of explaining more about the popular myths surrounding the wearing of corsets.

A corset is like wearing a hug

On the contrary, I have found my corset to not only give me curves for days, but it’s also surprisingly comfortable. It’s like wearing a hug! It’s one of the many things I like to do to help me love my body more. That said there are some things I cannot do in my corset. I don’t exercise in it, I don’t sleep in it (though I could), and my longline is a bit of a hassle in the restroom, so I usually end up taking it off and either going without the rest of the day or take a few minutes to relace.

But it is incredibly helpful with my posture, gives me a confidence boost, and helps control my appetite. I’m not sure if that last one is because of the corset itself, since it’s not super tight, or because I’m just more conscious of what I’m eating when I’m wearing it.

So what happened already?!

Anyway, like I said, I haven’t put on my corset in a few months. And that’s mostly because when I got it, I got the largest size I could, and I still had to pull the laces out all the way in order to clasp it. Then lacing was…well, it was an ordeal. I couldn’t get closer than the very edge of the modesty panel which gave me a 4-5″ gap between the sides. That and my lacing was very uneven.

1st wearing of Corset

First day I ever wore a corset

When you are laced up, the sides should look like this ||. Mine were more like this / \. Not good, to say the least.

When I got it out this morning, I thought, well, let’s just see if there’s any improvement. Holy Cow! I only had to loosen the laces to about 6 inches in the back to get it clasped. And then I pulled. And pulled a little more. I pulled until it was comfortably tight all the way down and then turned to look and make sure it was parallel. Not only were the laces almost perfectly parallel, the gap in the back was almost non-existent!

I can’t believe how many inches I’ve lost since I last tried it on. Talk about a non-scale victory!

Stealthing under a sweater at work today

The best part of wearing a corset?

The curves of course! I used to be an hourglass. But I’ve come to realize that I’ve become an apple. All my weight is in my tummy, and I feel like a ball most days. Having those snug laces give me a definable, noticeable waist? That’s an amazing feeling when looking in the mirror.


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Weekend Weigh-In

Happy Weigh In! The past few weeks have seemed to just fly right by, but I’ve still managed to maintain my steps, challenge exercises and healthy diet. It’s not always easy, but it is always worth it when I manage to stay on track.

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The Good

The size 24 jeans are my go-to pants right now. I wear the 26’s when I’m looking for a little extra roominess, but the smaller size is now completely comfortable. I also think that I’ve gotten down the menu thing.

The mister and I discovered that I really dislike cooking on Fridays. I get SO lazy at the end of the week. I want to come home to relax after a long week of work. We don’t want to tack on another take-out night, so I compromised with making Friday a slow-cooker night. That has made Friday’s much more bearable.

It also makes Saturday mornings a little happier, since we both tend to show a loss when we’ve eaten at home the night before Weigh Day. On the contrary, we tend to show a weight gain when we eat out on Friday evenings.

We started a new challenge on Monday, and this one has been pretty fun. Next week it will get a bit more intense since we’ll be doing two sets of everything.

The Bad

We didn’t really run into anything bad this week. I’ve been a bit tired, but I think that’s mostly because of the change of seasons and a little less sleep than normal. There is just so much to do in a day!

So, on to the measurements!

Measurements

Date: 10-21-17

Weight: 280.4 | -1.2 | Total: -69.6

Body Fat %: 55.5 | +0.1 | Total: -3.5%

BMI: 48.1 | -0.2 | Total: -12

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All in all, I’m pretty stoked that I only have about a half pound to go until I’m out of the 280’s and hit that 70lb loss.


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Choose Change

Choose to Change

Why Do I Want to Change?

There are a lot of people out there these days that are all about big is beautiful and calling out body shaming and every size is sexy and beautiful. I’m not here to rain on anyone’s parade, but some days I feel like it’s damned if I do change, damned if I don’t change.

There are some out there who would call me a disgusting pig because of my weight. Then there are those that insist that if you try to lose weight, you’ve obviously been brainwashed by the patriarchy.

“How can you live like that? How can you eat that? Don’t you care about your body at all?”

“Why would you want to lose weight? Can’t you just love yourself the way you are? Embrace your curves!”

Well, I’ve got two middle fingers, and I think both of these camps deserve them.

Let’s Talk about Shamers

No one wants to be fat. Let’s just put that out there right now. Here’s a page of 38 Diets from 2016 that only scratch the surface. We wouldn’t have so damn many if people actually liked being fat. I’ve never met anyone who enjoyed not being able to find their size in a store or getting winded walking up the stairs to the bathroom. Do you really think that when you tell someone they are fat that you are telling them something they don’t already know?

Thanks, Captain Obvious! I never knew! I’ll get right on that.

The worst ones are the ones that make fun of people who are working out at a gym, walking or jogging down a street, or taking a yoga class. Screw you, asshole!

trying to change

Okay, now that we’ve talked about those jerks, let’s talk about the other group.

Let’s Talk about Embracers

I’m all for showing more body types in advertisements, showcasing some plus size models, and not making fun of people for their weight. But these people who are trying to make it sound like its normal. This is NOT the normal state of a healthy human body. Keyword: Healthy.

Being overweight, being obese, is NOT Healthy. I don’t care if you work out every single day and you eat cleaner than Gweneth Paltrow, if you are overweight, you are not healthy. Period. If you have an excess of body fat, then your body is working too hard. And if you are pushing the narrative that it is perfectly acceptable to be overweight, you are a part of the problem. Do I think that I’m ugly because I’m overweight? No, I don’t. I know that there are people who think I am. But their opinion doesn’t matter to me, because the people who love think I’m beautiful, including me. But that doesn’t mean I think society at large should have to change what is considered beauty. Being healthy is even more beautiful!

But I’m healthy, right?

I am severely overweight. Fitting into the morbidly obese category, I’m also pretty sure I’d be a candidate for weight loss surgery if I really wanted to give it a shot (which I don’t). I also do 21,000 steps and strength training every day, with a good 30 minutes of cardio dancing 2-3 times a week. Six out of seven days I eat healthily.

I am not healthy. I’m not even CLOSE. But I’m getting there. Every day I get a little closer to the goal of being healthy. There is a difference between being fit, and being healthy. There are some people who are overweight, but they are extremely fit. And that fitness offsets some of the problems that come with being overweight. I’m beginning to get to that point. I can go 10 miles a day on my elliptical and I’m almost ready to increase the weight I’ve been working with. But I still have a long way to go.

Now, I’m not saying that if you are overweight you are any less of a person. Absolutely not. There is nothing wrong with YOU as a person if you are not healthy, but we need to stop pretending that its okay to not even try.

I love my body and my life. I want to have it for a long time to come. In order to be here for another 40 or 50 years, I have to change. Change is hard, but it is oh so worth it.

I Deserve Change


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Weekend Weigh-In: 09/30/17

It’s that time again! Well, it’s actually past time, but I was quite busy on Saturday and didn’t get around to my measurements until last night. I did weigh on Saturday morning, but my tape measure is sitting at work with the rest of my sewing stuff. Thus, I picked up a new sewing kit yesterday at the grocery store for me to keep at home since my sewing stuff is at work indefinitely. Bonus: the new tape measure has not been nibbled on by guinea pigs (yet).

The Good

Aside from having a brand new measuring tape I also have some brand new pairs of jeans. Last weekend, I opted to use a coupon I’d been hanging onto from Torrid and expanded my winter wardrobe with some new items. I’ve been wearing a size 26 jeans since the spring. They still fit pretty well but while I was trying them on I thought…”Why not?”

I tried some 24’s. They were just a smidge snug. What the hell…I went ahead and bought them. I expected to try them on in a few more weeks to see if got any looser. Well, after getting dressed on Saturday and going about my day, I realized that my jeans felt a little snug. Not in a bad way, just a little tighter than I was used to them fitting since my 26’s have been getting a bit loose.

I was about to get upset until I checked the label and realized I’d been wearing my 24’s all day. Without muffin-top. Score!

Weigh-in Measurements Progress

 

The Bad

Okay, so the bad is not so bad. We did our measurements, and comparing them to last month, I realized I had only lost about 2.2 lbs total in the past month. Not as much as I had hoped for, but a loss is still a loss.

Just because I didn’t lose as much in pounds as I wanted, doesn’t mean I get to slack off or love my body any less. It’s important to focus on the things I did right, improve in the areas I’ve neglected, and never stop loving my body.

So I’m redoubling my efforts with MyFitnessPal and planning for more intensity in our next 30-day challenge since there are only 10 days remaining in the one we’ve been doing.

Even the setbacks provide a window to improvement.

 

Measurements

Date: 09-30-17 & 10-1-17

Weight: 283.1 | -0.9

Body Fat %: 55.2 | -1.3

BMI: 48.6 | -0.1

Bust: 56.05″ | -1.5″

Waist: 52.25″ | -0.75″

Hips: 58.5″ | -0.25″

R. Thigh: 27″ | -2″

R. Calf: 17″ | +/- 0″

R. Bicep: 14.5″  | +/- 0″

I had a total, overall inch loss of 6.7″, quite worth the work I’ve put in over the past month. Here’s hoping next month’s measurements are even better!


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Weekend Weigh-in: 09/23/17

White mouse on piece of cheese

This week was one of those “the best laid plans of mice and men” weeks. It was a bit odd. There was an unusual amount of stress coming from work, though thankfully, we didn’t have little packs of M&M filled trail mix to snack on. We also made a switch from cable to a few streaming services this week, which resulted in a few nights of running around, getting inordinately angry at a cable modem, and more calls to the cable company than I would have liked. Thankfully the mister took care of those when I was ready to bite someone’s head off. Continue reading